Indecisiveness at it's Peak
Mood:  not sure
Well, yesterday was both a happy and sad day. it was fun and we really started to get in shape at camp. every muscle in my body aches. it hurts to sit down and i even started getting bruises on the inside of my arms from bumping the ball. after we (me, lyssa, jazz) went to mcdonalds and wongs wok (cuz jazz is japanese, ha ha ha) and then just hung out and it was fun. sad part, in the early morning carlos called and said that his step dad had him do stuff so he couldnt come to the park that night, idk if i really belive that. he  had to hang up soon too and to my surprise he didnt call me back and he didnt call this morning either to finish our conversation. its funny you can go on a date today, but you cant go a few yards from your house? oh hes going on a date today, he doesnt know that i know. im not exactly sure how i feel about that , nothing too happy. i was well i was good at pretending to be happy for him before cuz we were cool, but now im just............not as happy for him. i really wished that he had called tonight.  hes too busy though not standing up other girls.i have to start getting dressed in 3 hours so im gonna try to get a bit more sleep. hmmm......i wonder if he checks this every now and then? probably not.