Mood:  sharp

I wrote this before, but lost my original blog so let's see what i can remember. today was the day that the last straw broke the camel's back. i don't expect ot see or talk to him after today and i'm happier than i've been in a while. i gave him more chances than he needed to do this fairly, but instead he decided to be stubborn. so today i gave him another chance for us to walk away from this unscathed, and today he was still as adament as ever for things to be his way or nothing. i never got his parents involved before because i was afraid that he would never forgive me and now, frankly, i don't give a shit anymore. I AM FED UP!!! i've been doing this too much for too long. i'm also, coincidently, watching diary of a mad black woman on tbs. since he wasn't willing to compromise, i'll do things his way, by breaking him down, and making him hurt, just like he has done to me. i trust in karma to do it's part, but i wanna pitch in too. you can't always let everything be. i've come a long way and am damn proud of myself for being better than before. this is it. i wrote something today:

un cuento de muchos                                               by: jimmie harris

i can never get him off of my mind. here i am trying to find the hate in my heart to soothe my soul 'cause this realtionship has taken it's toll. here i stand as the story unfolds, seeing things that once never showed. stepping out showing his true self, leaving me confused like a victim of stealth. i try to adjust, but i'm not really with it. i try to give up, but i can't really get it. so now i'm just fucked..........................and don't know how to quit it.

 i like this one. when i say it, it sounds cool.