The Day That I Realized That I'm Not Easy to Satisfy
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: You and I Both - Jason Mraz
not hungry for food, but hungry for him. yesterday, after what seems like forever, i saw him. FINALLY!!! i called his name and saw that he rolled his eyes and mouthed the word 'fuck', so i started to cry cuz i thought he didn't wanna see me. he told me to stop crying and said that he didn't even say anything yet. really he did though, he just didn't know that i noticed. we talked breifly about nothing. i said it was nice to see him and he returned with a it was nice to see me too minus the crying. i hope he meant that. i asked if he could call me that night and he said that he'd think about it. thanks to my mom who called his job for who knows what i didn't get a call. i'm so happy that i saw him though, but honestly.................. i want more. more of him, but i know that i can't. i'll try to at least talk to him on the phone. I want him soooooooo badly, yes that way. i want him to mess up my sheets. you get what i'm saying now? i tried so hard to resist tearing his clothes off only because his friends were there. ONLY because his friends were there, lol. i'm relieved though cuz at least he wasn't there with a girl. that sounds quite selfish, but he means so much more to me than i like to admit or acknowledge. i wonder when the next time is that i'm gonna see him. i just can't get enough. he's my addiction.